It's been a minute y'all, since I really posted what's been going on, so this is my lengthy catch up post!! At this point i dont remember what has been said and what hasn't, so here goes. My 2nd daughter, Hilary (as close to biological as she could be/my daughter's sister bestie), passed away at age 31, at the beginning of this pandemic on March 6, 2020 from streptoccocus pneumonia. We truly beieve she had Covid but at that time they had no idea what they were dealing with. Just an absolutely beautiful young lady and always wore a smile. Everyone who knew and met her says the same. We have not been able to memorialize her and she is on our minds daily. I couldn't fly to comfort my daughter and that added to my stress. By now I'm already in the gym working on trying to numb the pain from our loss and digging in the yard like crazy...making more garden beds to keep me together. We'll just when you thought it couldn't get any worse and surely not so close together, then my son's father is stricken with COVID two weeks later, in Virginia and was literally fighting for his life for 4 weeks....at this point, I knew that I had to hold my son up as well as my daughter and somehow find enough strength for me to keep going. I knew that I couldn't take another close loss like that and I felt that I was on edge, not being able to find closure for My Hilary. When I tell you, the serious conversations with Me and God about Cherud, were on a constant..in the shower, other places in the bathroom, walking around the house, planting, composting, building fences, cutting grass, etc. I was talking to Cherud subliminally (he was in a medically induced coma..organs were trying to shut down)...longer story short....he walked out of the hospital 3 weeks ago a modern miracle, no meds whatsoever and I suffered major exhaustion/burn out from working out like a mad woman and mental stress, for almost the month in April...still haven't told my kids what happened to me..had just enough umph to tend to the seedlings. Well needless to say, the yarden has changed since lst year and there is so,much more to look at. When I tell you gardening saved my life...i mean every word of it and in return the benefits, hopefully will speak for themselves.
Glad you had your garden and things are evening out a little. Sorry for your loss. Blessings to you and yours. You are not the only one finding solis in the dirt. Your garden has nicely evolved.
This last three months has not been easy on anyone ! So sorry for your loss and near loss !! Hope its getting better now ! Just take care of yourself !!
Hummerbum it sounds like you have been through hell and back. I am so glad that Cherud has made it, but so sorry about your daughter. I hope you get a break from all this heartache. Best wishes. Glad you have had your garden.
I'm so glad that Cherud has recovered and is fit and healthy again but so very sad to hear that Hilary didn't make it. This virus has hit so many people and caused so much heartache. Thank goodness for our gardens - they can't take away the pain of losing love ones but they can, at least, give us something to focus on even for a while.
Thank you Everyone for your well wishes! I feel that I finally have that mental break....this weekend was great!! My son and grandkids were with us this wknd. They got to pick tomatoes and green beans from the garden. My son took a major harvest from my garden of swiss chard, mammoth jalapenos, thai peppers, celery. I sent him home with various seeds and starter plants that i had left over, along with enough cardboard to cover the area to get him started. That was amazing and it felt good to share. Since these pics..that shade cloth is over the 'tunnel' and the tomatoes are in the first curve. I've added another cloth on the other side of the garden and everything is looking great with all the rain we have gotten over the last 2 weeks.
Hummerbum, I can't even tell you how deeply I feel the heartache you endure. You're proof that we can survive loss, even though it leaves us marked. The love you have for others forces you to pull through. I'm so sorry.
Thank you @eileen and @Growingpains. It's been a minute, but i needed to take time to work on me, especially with all the mental stress I was under and my health. It's under control now and have even lost quite a few pounds and 2 dress sizes and counting...look forward to go to the gym at 6 a.m. to start my day and it helps in the best way. The gardens are in full production mode and i'm loving the snacking that goes on when i'm out there! hehe
Great to see you back on here, Hummer. The physical working out sounds like it is having a good effect on you and who knows, when the covid thing is over you may want to continue. I don't know about your diminishing frock sizes though---that could well be a costly thing as you continually have to buy new ones. hahaha. So happy to see you back.
Welcome back Hummer. Good to hear from your you again. Congrats on the working out. It certainly is good for the mental outlook.
Good idea, Hummer! I get my workout in the garden and when it isn't so hot and humid, with my fav canine! I think I may want to try those plant starter blocks you used. (My brain) It was you who used plant starter blocks, right?
