Red-faced and ashamed

Category: Lessons in my life | Posted: Fri Nov 19, 2010 7:10 am

What has become of me?? I am experiencing so many emotions and some of those emotions are just plain ugly. I feel ashamed, stupid, bad, exhilarated...
I feel ashamed and red-faced because in the time I was supposed to be getting better after the accident, - and my son helping me so diligently, I got better alright, in fact so much better that I became an internet surfer (par excellence) to the extent that I became an online trader. Imagine lil old me shifting monies around at the click of a mouse button.... Though this was in the time I was supposed to be getting better and get on with my regular life and activities. I stopped helping dear hubby out, I stopped stewing, I did not even garden or surf the garden stew. I was soooo stupid. Stupid because I could have been visiting Garden Stew and enjoy my regular morning stewing. More stupid because in my online trading efforts, when things were running so smoothly and I was making some monies, I accidently clicked on the wrong sport and took a substantial loss losing a mini- fortune. I had to make up the loss again and it took quite some time. Bottom line I neglected the important things in my life. Now how stupid is that.
Though I also felt exhilarated since I learned so much about trading, futures, commodities, equities and warrants, etc. and is still learning. In fact I made up my mini fortune loss to a point where I can now afford to take my family out on a holiday. Oops I almost said do away on a holiday. I do not want to go away. I should rather be getting back to my usual stuff, the good stuff. I must make time to stew with the Garden Stew crew, I must garden again, I must try to make green fig preserve (my figs are pushing out their first crop for the season), I must play with my pets, I must start swimming again, no more running as the arthritis has a hold on me. I want to go fishing or rather collecting muscles for bait,, etc...
With that said, I will start with stewing...

I just hope that this lesson that I learned will not be forgotton..

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Frank wrote on Fri Nov 19, 2010 8:27 am:

Nice to see you back Palm Tree, and in the Stew as before :) Glad you learned a new set of skills.

Palm Tree wrote on Fri Nov 19, 2010 8:37 am:

Gee thanks Frank
It is nice to be back and stewing.
I just hope to keep th enew skills to a hobby now and not an obsession. It almost became like an addiction.

eileen wrote on Fri Nov 19, 2010 9:46 am:

Well hello stranger!! It's sooo nice to have you back with us.
I'm glad to hear that your health has improved.
We all learn new things that can take over our lives but have to take the good with the bad when we get involved. Thankfully you managed to make up your losses.
I look forward to seeing you as a regular visitor here at The Stew again.

Sjoerd wrote on Fri Nov 19, 2010 12:33 pm:

Hallo daar Palmpie!
How nice to see you. Really.

It was quite nice of your son to help out with posting whilst you were on the mend. Ok, so you didn't come on here for awhile--a shame because you were missed. Having said that, you are here now, and thank goodness you have healed and aquired a new skill.

Hopefully you will again become a regular contributer. I used to like seeing your hiking fotos with your man and familie.

Well now, don't be so hard on yourself, its just nice to see you again.
Welkom terug.

Netty wrote on Fri Nov 19, 2010 11:21 pm:

Welcome back!

Palm Tree wrote on Sat Nov 20, 2010 1:50 pm:

You are all so wonderful. Thanks for the lovely welcome back. (the prodigal daughter...)
I will try to take everything in moderation from now on.
My next big adventure is tent camping.
no brownie points for guessing my next blog topic...

dooley wrote on Sun Nov 21, 2010 1:05 am:

I am glad to see you back, too. I'm happy you learned a new way to use the computer and haven't forgotten the old way. It will be nice to be able to keep up with your activities again. I don't run anymore either. In fact, I have a new hobby. It's called sitting. No exercise to that though and the doctor said a mile a day on the exercise bike. Oops! dooley

Palm Tree wrote on Mon Nov 22, 2010 5:54 am:

Thanks a million Dooley.
A mile a day - wow - pushing it..
That brings back some memories - I used to run a couple of miles per day.
Darn - and to think not too long ago I started cycling when I entered a triathlon.
Ah well..
I do like your new hobby though - you make sitting sound like hard work :)

glendann wrote on Wed Nov 24, 2010 8:05 pm:

Hello Palm Tree,I have been missing from the Stew too.I have been on Facebook.Not having to type much.I found myself missing and wondering about everyone.Its a great feeling to be back.