I am sad

Category: Pinkies LIfe | Posted: Fri Jun 23, 2006 2:35 pm

Rob left today to his new job as a full time service tech on an new oil rig. He will be gone 2 weeks and home a week. There will be times where he is gone for 3 weeks....thats 21 day! I miss him already and he just left this morning. :`(

I have to keep telling myself that this job will finally to the purpose for the move here to La from my much loved FL. We can get out of debt and buy a house. If all goes well within the next year and a half, we can adopt a child. We want our own house and a small nest egg before we do.

Rob will be 36 the 2nd of July and he told me last night, that he could feel time running short. I thought only women had that clock. He wants to make good money in the housing market and theres tons to be made here in La, esp New Orleans and around Mississippi. I so want it for him. I keep telling him that most adults dont get into a postion that they can make such a huge step until their early 40s. Doesnt make him any happier.

The other night, him and my little sister sat me down.... that should have been my clue something was up. Them two together in something is hardly ever a good thing for the rest of the family.

In case you didnt know, my little sister Dianne (and little brother Jonny) just came back from a year in Iraq..... Army. Well, Rob is ex Navy and him and Dianne are two peas in a pod. Anyway back to the story.

They sat me down and told me that they had both applied to a company called Black Water. If you are here in the States, youve heard of this company through the news. They prove secutiy for high ranking civilins in Iraq. Towards the beginning of the war, some of Black Waters men were killed and it was all over the news. Well, they (Black Water) are snatching up ex military personal and Diannes is a combat medic with the Army so they will grab her faster then Rob. But they are going on the buddy system so one wont go without the other.The pay is $500,000. a year. Three months in Iraq and one month home state side.

I had told Rob at the beginning of our marriage, I would never hold him back from something he wanted to do in his career. That I would put my two cents in and then support whatever decision he made. After all, its his career not mine. So what could I say, when they told me this?? They havent told anyone else in the family and everytime I talk to one of them (the other kids or mom) I feel like Im lying to them. They want to wait until they are accepted into Black Water before they tell anyone else. Moms going to be crushed. But shes the kind of mom that will understand why Dianne and ROb are doing it. Dianne is 24 and will be set for life when she got back(she a smart girl when it comes to her money).She wants to be a doctor and is now struggling to pay for school and live.

We would be completely out of debt, be able to buy the house we want, have our nest egg and be able to adopt ,all with money left over for ROb to start his own busniess and me to have money to invest.

My little brother (Diannes older brother) doesnt know because he will want to go over there to protect Dianne. She was almost kill twice (and has two purple hearts and tons of metals and awards,)while over there with the Army and now state side, there isnt anything she can do or go, that Jonny doesnt know about. Its gotten to the point that we had the house searched twice for bugs..... yeah its that bad. We are now thinking its her roommate telling Jonny so Nicole (roommate) doesnt even know about Black Water. Only me, Rob and Dianne. Well, I should say on my side of the family anyways. In the 8 yrs weve been married, Ive only met one of his sisters and he comes from a very large family.

He has told one of his sisters... I was asked to please talk Rob and Dianne out of going. That it isnt worth it. What can I do?? I cant go back on my word. Its hard tho.

Besides, after the BlackWater men were killed, the company changed their policies. Now, the militairy provides backup for the BlackWater men and women. They arent out there alone. Ive researched the company and everything to do with them that I could find.

But in the end, Im reserving my opinions about all this until they are accepted. I think him leaving today just gave me time to start thinking about all this. I wont tell him no because I beleive its my job as a wife to support his decisions when he comes to his career. Just like he supports me in my art work and my long hard climb to the top.

But for now, he is gone for two weeks and I am sad.

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jubabe296 wrote on Fri Jun 23, 2006 4:09 pm:

Denee,
I really admire you!! You are a very supportive wife and Rob is very lucky to have you by his side!! And you are lucky to have him! I can feel the love between the two of you!!I know it is very scary thinking of Rob and your sister going to Iraq!! I feel things in life have a way of working themselves out and I know all of your dreams will come true!! I consider you one of my friends and I always have an ear and shoulder to lend to my friends, so if you need anyone to talk too just pm me!!! Take care and I hope things go well for you and Rob!!
Your friend,
Julie

glendann wrote on Fri Jun 23, 2006 6:50 pm:

Denee ,
I wish everything for you works out .I know your Hubby is just trying to get you two a better life .I know it has to be very hard to support his decision .I can not even think about this kind of decision .God be with you what ever happens .I'm here for you .

dooley wrote on Fri Jun 23, 2006 9:06 pm:

I have a cousin who went to Iraq as a civilian truck driver, heavy duty trucks. He was there for a year and made it home okay. It's hazardous but they wanted money to buy a house and just weren't making it at home. Dooley

Gardenstew wrote on Sat Jun 24, 2006 7:31 pm:

Denee, a difficult situation for sure. But the advice I'd give you right now is not to stress too much over it because they have not been accepted yet. I am guessing deep down that you are torn between the thoughts of financial freedom and the risk of Rob working for Blackwater. This is understandable and nothing to feel guilty over.

I know you guys will make the right decision. But for now try not too stress too much. We're here to listen :)

Pinkiered wrote on Sat Jun 24, 2006 8:32 pm:

Well, thanks everyone but my sister got accepted today. Rob is out on the water until the 7th so I dont know if he did. But She wont go with out him.

Now time will tell if he did.